Time to get back on the tracks...

Hi folks, 

I know it's been a long time (as you can see from previous posts, I thought this might cause a problem). I'm down 50 lbs and I'm ready for the next 20 to come off. I really feel like I'm just now entering new territory with weight loss since I'm just starting to see weights I haven't seen in over 7 years. I'm not going to give excuses, but I need to boost the exercise too. On that note, is it just me or do you find that your job really impacts your motivation? I have a full time job and two small children. They're out of school and activities for the summer, so my schedule should be more conducive to finding "me" time. But...it seems that when the kids' stuff winds down, the work and OT increases. When this happens, I get more stressed and more tired and more "unwilling" to exercise.  It really is a vicious circle - too tired to exercise, but if exercised, wouldn't feel so tired?! I still struggle with feeling guilty over spending time exercising rather than spending time with my kids or doing other things that need to get done - grocery shopping, errands, cleaning. 

Anyone with thoughts, suggestions, tough love - send them my way. It can't be any worse than what I tell myself. 

Hope everyone is having success!

I'm back - a month + later...

See what I mean?!? I really love reading everyone else's blogs but I just don't seem to be able to keep up with my own. Maybe it's just that I've had all this isolated in my head for so long it feels strange to put it out there for others to see.

I'm somewhat perplexed. I've had my 3rd fill and I have moments where a few bites are all I can handle and others where it feels like I keep eating and eating and eating. I'm still eating much, much less than before. I don't think I should be able to eat this much. Has anyone else encountered this? I've read about the 5DPT, but I've also heard that you're not supposed to do it less than a year post-op.

I will go for #4 at the end of March. Perhaps that will do the trick. I hope.

Not as easy to keep up with as Facebook...

So, obviously, when I created this blog, I needed some sort of outlet. And...as I mentioned, I stay pretty busy. This definitely is a little more time consuming than Facebook, but IMHO, more important. I did (part of) the 5DPT and it worked! I was so excited to see the scales start moving again. Between that and the exercise, I think I may be over the hump so to speak - at least for now. My next fill is on the 27th and I'm glad I've got it scheduled already. That gives me about a week and a half to see if the recent drop is because I'm actually feeling full and the band is adjusted properly or if I'm really in need of an adjustment. I have assumed the latter simply because I haven't had one since the end of October. 

Anyway, tomorrow is a school holiday for the kids but I have to work. I'm not looking forward to it, so I'm procrastinating about getting things done to get me out the door in the morning... I did want to make a quick post to share my mini-Victory! I'm on a challenge to lose 13lbs by Valentines to be in Onederland and this puts me 3-4 lbs on track!

And so it begins...

Ok, if I didn't have enough to do already between a full-time job, a wonderful husband, two small, energetic children, the dog and fish, selling Tupperware and Facebook, I've decided to start a Blog... I know, you don't have to tell me how crazy I am. Mainly though, this is my outlet for my life after WLS to vent, to share, to be heard and to feel a part of this awesome experience that others are going through. I am not alone, but it IS all about me!

2009 will be my year! I hope this will be a great year for you all, too. My single resolution for '09 - take care of myself. My new friends, explore new places and experience new experiences. Enjoy my children and husband and the time I have with them (no matter how limited it may seem) but to ensure that my eyes stay on the prize because I deserve it.

It's hard for me to say these things and not feel selfish because I'm the 'caretaker' for everyone else. If there's one thing I learned in 2008 though - ya gotta take care of yourself first.

Peace be with you.